…. I just can’t do it!
Disclosing my starting weight doesn’t sit right with me. I’ve never shared the number on the scale with anyone, other than my doctors. Not even my husband knows how much I weigh.
Why is that? Probably because I don’t want to be judged and the number itself embarrasses me. Every doctor and nurse who have ever weighed me are always shocked by the number they see. I’ve often moved the weights up on the scale when I’ve been weighed on the old fashion scales because the person weighing me always starts too low.
Years ago when I had lost a lot of weight and I was no longer obese a nurse didn’t believe me when I told her I weighed 138 pounds. She thought that number was too high and she kept pinching my arms and asking me where all that weight was hiding.
I finally asked my doctor why people thought that I weighed considerably less. Her answer was that I had “heavy bones”. I always thought that was a myth but I have scored above average on my bone density scans. Maybe there’s something to that theory after all.
I read a lot of blogs where people are very open about their starting weight and where they eventually want to be. I’m just not there yet. Do people judge me negatively because I don’t share that information? Does it make my blog less credible? I’m interested in hearing what people have to say on the subject.
I’m happy to share my weight loss and my short-term goals. I know that eventually I will share where I am on the scale but probably not for another 30 pounds. My only regret is that I didn’t take a before picture but I’m sure I can find a photo from my collection that shows me 12 pounds heavier than I am today.
I am starting to notice that my clothes are looser and I even had to tighten the belt on my pants today. Food at the moment isn’t an issue for me, however, I still have to push myself to find time to exercise. I’m still feeling the effects of yesterday’s walk and hours of gardening. I’ve convinced myself that I need a day off. My husband is convinced that weight loss is 80% food and 20% exercise. From my own personal experiences I’d have to agree.
Cheers!
Mama Cormier 
As you know, I am very OUT THERE with my information, my weight, my goal, my emotions…… That is just me. I am told by people that I am brave because I put it out there. I just am being me. Not brave, just very up front. I am also embarrassed by where I started. I was embarrassed just by the way I looked. I am comfortable with putting those numbers out there.. I think it may be a different thing for men than women…
I do not think that it is necessary to give out those numbers. I think your descriptions of your efforts, your emotions, triumphs and set-backs are compelling and honest. Numbers do not always add to the story.
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Thank you, Mark. I value your opinion and your encouragement on my weight loss journey.
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As I do yours….
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People get too fixated on numbers. They aren’t important. They are there to measure things but they don’t measure a person’s worth. Weight, height, bank balance, the number of cars you own; none of these numbers tell you anything important about a person. You are a teacher and I am positive you have never judged any of your students because of their weight, height or by the car thier parents drive. I am very proud of you in your journey to lose weight and the great success you have had to date. Numbers don’t matter.
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I think in my heart I’ve always known this. Thanks for your kind words.
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